Tuesday, March 25, 2014
I'm not the stablest rock around
High and low not on my whimsical round
One moment a cheery cardigan
Another a choosy curtain
Distraction a constant bane and boon
Rapid thought a constant bane and boon
Curses lost, blessings forgotten
Relationship a strain
On my worry
And your pity
Heart's heart's creation
Passion's a blazing glory
Burned out a touch too quickly
Love is not the question
My mind's the motion
Love isn't what I fear
But future plays by ear
And past's a foolish queer
One fine day eyes would open
Feeling's an omission
Ardour might disappear on one light of day
This self becomes lost a long way away
The dread would consume me
Is this the end of we?
Unfairness is you escorting a broken soul
With sanity knowing holding tight is being hopeful
Would I subject love to such sorrow?
How profound could pain grow?
How would this nothingness manifest?
How would the abyss of nothingness after the grandeur of amorousness manifest?
Lost in loving,
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Everything imprints WRONG
Shiver and shake stay within
Scare and start keep creepin'
Pushing back the time a futile attempt
Taking off the body brings contempt
A step closer a step of start
A day closer a day of doubt
You know it's going to be fine
And you'll be liking it!
It's what we do.
Irrationality sounds rational
Fear feels normal
These moments a pageant of vulnerability
Defeating a mere quality
Still sins envelope
Still virtues lose hope
Agony imbues action
Uncertainty infiltrates cessation
At this juncture,
Do we say prayer?
We adjust; It's what we do.
Monday, September 16, 2013
Is this going to be one of my less lucid day?
I can feel me slipping from sanity
Letting go of the frayed rope of control
Relishing the sickening sensation of realisation
You know nothing
Nothing about me
Nothing about anything
I have no word
You let it pass
I can no longer return
You can no longer ask
I never want to cause you trouble
Never want to see you sad
It's better if
They stab this heart
And shoot this brain;
Drown me in sleeping gas.
No longer fighting,
Sunday, September 15, 2013
You say what you want out loud and clear.
And there is nothing wrong with that.
And I have no such outlet,
Would you understand?
And I have no outlet,
Would you understand?
Is it a wonder sleep is such a refuge?
Is it a wonder leaving is such a bless?
Is it a wonder loving is easier from a far?
Holding back tears, biting tongue,
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Of people writhing
Of people glancing
These instincts struggle
Grasping to break free
Just one more step to wild oblivion
Is it a wonder people fear?
Is it a wonder people tread to forget?
In my consciousness I resist
In my loneliness I keep
Somebody to touch
Somebody to kiss
This body yearns
Time to kill
Body to feel
The blaring sound provides silence
To fill with gasp and moan
How much temptation can one's heart take?
Lost myself, but not quite.
The pouring drinks,
The blasting beats,
The glimmering lights,
We lost our heads,
And let the hearts take charge
The rhythmic instincts as old as time
In desire as old as time
The fog intensifies;
Is it the air?
Is it our breath mingling in the night?
Tirelessly following these instincts into oblivion
Completely losing these minds into temptation
To the morning rise...
Oh, so sweet
Oh, so lovely
We are so lovely giving in...
Enjoy the dream 'til the soul's barin'...
With every sip you feel enhanced...
Yet there is a moment when you know for sure that you are rather out of control...
'Cause things don't make sense no more...
Kept on biting ice...
As I feel the euphoria ain't leaving...
With every sip, they chink what little consciousness left in me...
After a lifetime pride that I am never lost to the world,
And I still do not,
I can now understand why people give in, and how.
Just a touch of the experience,
Got rational frightened the heck out of me...