Are You Happy?

"Life is not worth living without happiness."

Are you happy?

It's complicated.

Am I not grateful for the people around me if I am not happy?

Is grateful enough happiness?

Is grateful living worth living over happiness?

I am grateful,

But I am happy?

I daresay I do not know.

Finding out whether life is enough with gratefulness.

Searching,

Lina. 

Is This Truly Goodbye?

The prospect of leaving and never coming back is daunting;

A piece of my heart will always stay,

This part of my life will always be remembered.

The intention to stay never existed,

Yet leaving is such a terrifying step.

The plan is now questioned;

Actions are now frightened.

Change is hard;

Change is needed.

The instinct to stay unmoved always kick in;

A push to different directions rarely appreciated.

Experiencing fear like no other;

Heart begging others to understand,

Mind stumbling over erratic thoughts,

And body simply has been. 

Still Lost,

Lina.

Love The Night Away

In darkness I spy glimpses
Of people writhing
Of people glancing

These instincts struggle
Grasping to break free
Just one more step to wild oblivion

Is it a wonder people fear?
Is it a wonder people tread to forget?

In my consciousness I resist
In my loneliness I keep

Somebody to touch
Somebody to kiss
This body yearns

Time to kill
Body to feel

The blaring sound provides silence
To fill with gasp and moan

How much temptation can one's heart take?
Lost myself, but not quite.

The pouring drinks,
The blasting beats,
The glimmering lights,
We lost our heads,
And let the hearts take charge
The rhythmic instincts as old as time

Letting go,
Indulge,
In desire as old as time

Is it a wonder people seek to give?

The fog intensifies;
Is it the air?
Is it our breath mingling in the night?

Tirelessly following these instincts into oblivion
Completely losing these minds into temptation

Look
Show
Close
Kiss
Touch
Writhe
To the morning rise...

Oh, so sweet
Oh, so lovely
We are
We are so lovely giving in...

Enjoy the dream 'til the soul's barin'...

Enjoy,

Lina. 

Oh, You Friendly People!

It is true what they say;
With every sip you feel enhanced...

Yet there is a moment when you know for sure that you are rather out of control...
'Cause things don't make sense no more...

Kept on biting ice...
Despair fell...
As I feel the euphoria ain't leaving...

With every sip, they chink what little consciousness left in me...


After a lifetime pride that I am never lost to the world,
And I still do not,
I can now understand why people give in, and how. 

Just a touch of the experience,
Got rational frightened the heck out of me...



Much Love,
Lina.