What a hit upon the head, to be told that all those kindness and understanding were granted upon me to spoil me.
Especially when, all this time, I thought you really understand.
What a slap on the face, to have you laid out all your expectation, without really asking what I want.
Or maybe you did, in a passing.
Or maybe, giving you the benefit of doubt, I didn't hear it.
What a kick to the stomach, to know that you think I am "strong".
Have you ever look deeper?
Or even try to?
Delve inside my soul, mind and heart??
I was in total disbelief.
You could not imagine, how tempted I was, to blurt out what I felt; what was happening to me.
Would you kill me then? Or maybe now?
Loving you,
And hating you,
Lina.
Especially when, all this time, I thought you really understand.
What a slap on the face, to have you laid out all your expectation, without really asking what I want.
Or maybe you did, in a passing.
Or maybe, giving you the benefit of doubt, I didn't hear it.
What a kick to the stomach, to know that you think I am "strong".
Have you ever look deeper?
Or even try to?
Delve inside my soul, mind and heart??
I was in total disbelief.
You could not imagine, how tempted I was, to blurt out what I felt; what was happening to me.
I have relapsed.
With this raging anger and constant foul mood, what I can expect?
How would you react, I wonder?With this raging anger and constant foul mood, what I can expect?
Would you kill me then? Or maybe now?
Loving you,
And hating you,
Lina.